| So I have to be up for work in 4 hours, but I apparently can't sleep. I have been thinking way too much.
I hadn't been in a "real" relationship since August of 2007... haha sad. I am in the best relationship I have ever been in. I could not ask for anyone better. Honestly, I have never felt this way about anyone. I am sad though that he will be going to Iowa for college. I don't really know what to do with that, I just want it to work... still another month and a half to go though, thank the god I don't believe in.
I have always been foolish and childish with my previous relationships. Always saying "I love you" after the first freaking day or week of being together, getting jealous about everything... Crying over everything. Letting them tear my heart apart. Believing the words that were said about... staying together forever, etc. and believing that any boy before has ever loved me. And getting totally effing screwed over completely. It was all stupid childs play. But it prepared me.
Even though Zach and I have never said those three delicate words to eachother after three months, I know we do love eachother. I just want the right moment to say it. Or to let him say it.
I don't know.
Time will only tell | 
